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I had a hearing test last week. I have to admit I was expecting the test to show an easy fix to my growing list of things I don’t seem to hear, like compact wax or …..well I don’t know what really so when the hearing specialist started showing me samples for hearing aids I was shocked.
Turns out I have reverse-slope hearing loss where I can hear high pitched sounds, but not the low pitched ones. Turns out reverse slop hearing loss is extremely rare, so rare that most hearing specialists only see a small handful of people with it in the span of their entire careers.
I don’t know a lot about it yet, but when they put a pair of demo hearing aids in my ears I was so shocked at all the sounds I had been missing around me that I don’t really remember ever hearing my entire life.
One of the first sounds I heard made me realize I was holding on to a grudge way too long, and I needed to apologize and get over it.
Dear Lady At Sam’s Club
Do you remember me? I am the lady who about a year ago cut you and your cart off down the nut aisle . You swore up and down at me , saying how rude I was, and how selfish. I honestly, couldn’t figure out why you were so angry with me. I was so rattled at your anger that when I got to my car I shed a few tears. I know I bumped into your cart but I didn’t hear it coming.
You see it wasn’t until they put sample hearing aids on me at Sam’s Club this week that I realized just how hard to believe the words “I didn’t hear your cart coming ” were.
I never knew shopping carts made such a loud rumbling noise when you push them around Sam’s club. I am sure most people can hear them approaching from quite the distance, but I learned this week that my hearing is not that of most people.
You probably thought I stepped in front of you on purpose as an action of my need for a super sized bottle of nuts being more important than your mission for whatever was in aisle 4, because surely I could have heard your loud cart approaching and therefore would have waited to reach over and grab what I wanted until you passed by. Truth was I didn’t hear you or your cart, but I did clearly hear your high pitched screaming that resulted when I ran into your cart, which is probably one more reason why you didn’t believe me when I said “sorry, I didn’t hear your cart coming up behind me” , but instead continued to yell at me about my selfish ways.
The whole situation makes me realize now, we really can’t judge a person by what we see on the outside.
Lady at Sam’s club I am sure if you knew tore a strip out of a person with reverse slope hearing loss, you would feel like crawling under a rock right now. Lady at Sam’s club I am sorry for holding a grudge, and I know I am holding one since you were the first person who popped in my head when I could finally hear sounds I was missing, not how much clearer my husband’s voice sounded. Lady at Sam’s club perhaps you were having a very bad day one in which you felt a million miles behind and me jumping in front of your cart, caused every bit of tension you were holding on to come to an ugly head that you felt horrible for later.
Truth is I will never know your side of the story and you will never know mine, but I won’t give your actions another thought after today because that day with hearing aids in for the first time I was reminded….
give grace, give love, give mercy, give forgiveness because you can’t see all that a person is dealing with on the outside, we might look 100% fine, but physically or emotionally we might be struggling with more than one issue that hinders us from doing what seems like the most lovable choice.
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